Yesterday

I knew yesterday was going to be an eventful day, but I wasn't expecting this kind of eventful day....
I had already made plans to pay a drop in fee & leave Hadley at Mother's Morning Out for an extra day this week. I've felt like a hamster in a wheel lately, and I haven't been able to catch up on anything since Hadley has been sick. We had a shelf collapse in our laundry room (which holds a bunch of my pewter trays on it) and another shelf in our master closet collapse. I've had lots of grocery shopping to do too. AND...the deep cleaning in the house has got to get done at some point! It's driving me crazy!

After dropping Hadley off, I decided that I was going to make a big Wal-Mart run and then go home to repair the shelves. Obviously it is WAY easier to grocery shop without a baby in tow, and it's impossible to hang a shelf with a one year old getting into everything. Now, some of you may wonder...why isn't your husband doing this? Well, he works full time & he goes to law school in Birmingham on the weekends. His evenings are filled with studying & trying to squeeze in as much family time as possible. This leaves us with no time for repairs at the moment.

Anyway, back to my story. I finished up at Wal-Mart, and I had loaded my last bag into the trunk. I was getting excited because I was making good time & I thought I might even get to squeeze in a few minutes for a quick nap this afternoon. With that thought, I slammed the trunk, and I hear my car beep!!! Yikes! Like a dummy, I had laid my keys in my truck while I was loading everything up. I NEVER do this!!! Well, I'd locked myself out of the car. Jeremy was at a work function yesterday and was away from the office, so I knew he couldn't help. My mom was teaching at Faulkner yesterday, and I knew she wouldn't really be able to help either. I decided to call my mom anyway to vent out my frustration. Of course she offered to come get me & drive all the way to my house in Wetumpka (I was at the Wal-Mart on Chantilly Parkway). This would have been ridiculous, so I just called the insurance company & filed a roadside assistance claim...much more convenient for all of my loved ones involved! After getting off the phone with the insurance people, I was so upset because I didn't know how long it would take them to get to me. I had a trunk full of groceries, and I was worried about them spoiling before the locksmith could get to me and I could get all the way back home! This was really the least of my worries yesterday.

I had called my mom again, and it was then that she told me that Nana had been at work & passed out. She had been teaching a class, and her students said that she told them she was feeling dizzy. Someone had gone to the office to get help, but before anyone could come to help, Nana had already passed out on the floor. She fell backwards & hit her head. Nothing had broken her fall. She had been unconscious for about a minute before she came to. My mom said at first they were thinking she might have had a stroke. At this point, Nana had lost all of her short term memory. She didn't know what month it was or who the president of the United States was. I was really, really worried.

It was just this morning that I was talking to my mom about how I wanted to spend more time with Nana. Life is so busy, and I wanted to make a point to invest in time with my grandmother. I want Hadley to know her great grandmother & have fond memories with her. We are finally at a time in life where we all live in the same town, and I feel like we don't make the most of it like we should. Everyone is busy, but I feel like that is not an excuse.

Finally the locksmith came, and got my car unlocked. SIDE NOTE...if you ever want to buy a car that someone can't break into or has MUCH difficulty breaking into...buy a Volkswagen!!! It was crazy trying to get into my car!

I rushed home to put the cold stuff into the fridge, and I was headed to the hospital. I called my mom on the way, and she told me to turn around. The hospital was only allowing Nana to have one visitor at that time. I was so upset. I wanted to see her. So, I went back home & tried to stay busy building my shelves & putting all the groceries away.

The doctors decided to hold Nana for 24 hours. So far all the tests for Nana have come back negative. The doctors say this is a great sign! However, I want to know why Nana passed out. They did an EKG last night (all you medical people out there...I think that's the name of the test. ??? They were testing her heart.) We are still waiting on the results of that test. Nana has a heart murmur, and the doctors said that when you get older sometimes the heart murmur can cause the valves in your heart to mess up & this can make you faint.

Yesterday was a VERY emotional day for me. I feel like my life cannot slow down. I feel like I have so much weight on my shoulders. I feel the stress in my chest. I'm trying to let go.

Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

God is good, and I'm resting in the fact that HE is in control. But, I sure do like to pretend sometimes like I'm in control. This is a hard lesson for me to learn.


Nana, I LOVE you so much!!! I'm praying for you & praying for your quick recovery!!





me & Nana at Hadley's birthday party